A New Beginning

So IUI #1 was a bust and I am totally crushed. Each day that goes by I am a little better, but I did not think I would take a failed cycle that hard. I guess I just really thought it worked. Although I still don't think IVF is a path we will need to take (hopefully), it is still hard to be optimistic after a failed cycle.

Tomorrow marks a new week and a new cycle. I will start my femara tomorrow and continue with my cycle the same as with the first cycle. I requested adding a few days of an injection this cycle, but I am pretty sure my idea was shot down. Apparently being my age and having more than 2 follicles is "too risky". I just worry that it didn't work the first time, why would it work this time? Please God give me strength and optimism for this cycle

9 DPO

The 2ww is making me nuts!!!! My DH keeps telling me not to look into things too much but I just can't. I had cramping 5-7dpo and immediately though implantation!!!!! I am so hopeful for this cycle and I hope my happiness continues. One thing that has been driving me nuts is that my breasts/nipples have not been as sore as they usually are. Is this a good sign or a bad sign?? My mind is driving me crazy. I am EXTREMELY tired and all I want to do is sleep through the rest of this 2ww. I know this post is kind of jumbled, but I feel a little better now. Hopefully the next time I post it will be with pictures of a BFP!!

Trigger Happy

So my follicle check today showed that I am ready to ovulate!! My DH gave the trigger HCG shot at 8:30 pm and my IUI is scheduled for Saturday at 10:30 am. I am so ready for this. I am cautiously optimistic, but it is crazy to think in just 2 weeks I could be pregnant!

I can't wait to turn this into a pregnancy blog :)

Grow follies grow!

I had my second follicle check today and things are moving aong smoothly. The two front runners measure 16mm and 15mm. I had 2 other follicles that the RE says are too small to fertalize if released. 2 eggs are perfect! That can get me 1 or 2 babies :)

The plan is to go back for another u/s on Thursday and more than likely trigger Thursday night with an IUI on Saturday morning!!!!! It will be here before I know it, but then the 2ww starts. Patience has never been my strong suit :)

First Follicle Check!

Had my first follicle check today. I have 3 follies on my right side 11mm, 10mm, and 7.8mm. No follies on the left. My RE thinks the 11mm and 10mm will get mature enough to fertilize but doesn't think the 7.8mm one will make it. I have another u/s on Tues and IUI more than likely on Thursday or Friday.

I am getting so excited!!!!

Wow it has been a while since I last posted. I am excited to announce that AF arrived and I have started my IUI cycle with Femara!!! It has hit me that it is real now and I am SCARED!!! I can't imagine how I would have been if they wouldn't have saved my tubes and I was doing IVF instead. I just really want this to work and am not sure how I will react if it doesn't....... I know I should try and relax and think positive but it is hard. Of course the Femara side effects have not been kind to me, but in the end it will be so worth it!!!! My first follicle check is on Saturday the 18th and they said to anticipate the IUI on Wednesday(22nd) or Friday(24th). Please pray that this works!!!

Light at the End of the Tunnel

As I have said before, I felt like I went through a grieving process when I was told my only option was IVF. I was upset that I never had the chance to try anything else. I know many of my infertility friends struggled through every step and ended at IVF, and by no means do I want to suffer through disappointment and heartache for the next couple months/years. I just hoped that maybe on of the other steps might work for me.



When I had my HSG and found out my tubes were blocked I was devastated! I was mad at the world. I finally came to terms with what I had to do to have my family and I was willing to do anything.



I had an exploratory laparascopy this morning to assess endometriosis and take my tubes out. My doctor was 95% sure that they needed to come out so to not further damage my future fertility. Before I went under I had finally realized I would wake up with two less parts.



Upon waking up I kept asking the nurse if my tubes were gone and how bad the endometriosis. The nurse said the doctor talked to my husband and he would tell me when he came back. I asked how long it took and she said about an hour, and I had a feeling it was bad.



My husband met me back in the recovery room and broke the news. My endometriosis was very small and my tubes.........were SAVED! I had tears in my eyes but had to contain myself because of my pain.



I thank God for giving me a light at the end of the tunnel. I will get my chance to try IUI before the IVF, and I pray it works. If not, we will move to IVF like we previously planned. All that matters is that we get our miracle.



Thank you God, and thank you all my infertility friends! Without your support and words of encouragement this would be unbearable. I keep each of you in my thoughts a prayers daily!